Isaiah Khalid Capaccione

Isaiah.. It has already been a year since I lost you.. Today.. the 17th of Jan.. last year I found
out that I was having a son..I was so excited because.. when you moved I could say ~hes moving~.. my
son.. I waited so long for you.. if I had known that only a week from today I would lose you.. I
would
have prayed for that week to last forever.. I was so scared that night...I had no idea how small you
would be... when they told me they couldnt find your heartbeat... all they could hear was mine... I
thought I lost you before you were even born... Mommy almost went to heaven before you... I nearly
bled to death... when they gave me anesthesia... I was so afraid of what I would hear when I woke
up... I must have asked your grandma 20 times if you were o.k when I was waking up... they said you
were very sick... they didnt know if you would make it thru the first 24 hours... I prayed that your
little body could fight...you tried so hard my little angel... I wish I was there with you when you
were struggling to breathe.. I didnt get to hold you til you were already in heaven.. You were so
perfect... perfect little hands and perfect little feet and your sweet little face.... I held you
all night.. I didnt want to let you go........ It is almost a year later now and that night is vivid
in my mind... it always will be.. my tiny angel. I promise you
sweetheart that when I get to heaven~~~ I will hold you forever..... I love you.. my sweet Isaiah.
@>--- (uħib:ukato) أُحِبُّك ~ ana uħibbuk) ٲنَا ٱحِبُّ ~ Ti Amo @)->--
~Gráím thú ~ Σ᾿ ἀγαπῶ ~ Ah loove ye
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\\\"An angel in the book of life.. wrote down our babies birth.. and whispered
as she closed the book... \\\"too beautiful for earth...\\\"

Isaiah Khalid Capaccione~~~

Meaning of Isaiah-- Salvation of God... ( and he shall be wonderful)
and also -Salvation of his people-

ישעיהו "Yahweh"

~Imagine a Love so strong that saying hello and good-bye in the same day ~ is worth all the
sorrow~~

~She clings to the hand of God to keep from going wild and in His presence comes to know his other
hand holds... her child~~~

24 weeks & 2 days gestation

Born 1-25-07 at 10:14 p.m
Died 1-26-07 at 2:33 a.m

Weighed ~1 pound 8 ounces~
Length ~12 and 1/4 inches~



~Tiny angels rest your wings.. sit with me for awhile..
How I long to hold your hand.. and see your tender smile..
Tiny angel, look at me.. I want this image clear..
That I will forget your precious face.. is my biggest fear.

~Tiny angel can you tell me, why you have gone away?
You werent here for very long.. so why is it you couldnt stay?
Tiny angel shook his head, these things I do not know.. but I do
know that you love me and that I love you so..~~

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~In a baby castle , just beyond your eye...
Your baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy..
Who are you to wish him back into this world of strife,
No, play on my baby.. you have eternal life...

At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes your eyes..
You will hear his tiny footsteps come running to your side..
His little hands.. caress you so tenderly and sweet..
You will breathe a prayer and close your eyes and embrace
him in your sleep..

Now you have a treasure that you rate above
all others..

You have known true glory..

YOU ARE STILL HIS MOTHER~~~~~~

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~Some people dream of angels.. I held one in my arms...~~

Isaiah... I never knew true love until I looked at your angel face..
until I held your tiny body in my loving embrace.. @>---

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Isaiah~


Gender: Male
Origin: Hebrew
Meaning: The Hebrew name Isaiah means - God is my salvation. Bible: a Hebrew prophet.




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My Mommy is a survivor or so Ive heard it said.. but
I can hear her crying at night.. when all others are
in bed... I watch her lay awake at night and go
to hold her hand.. she doesnt know Im with her
to help her understand..

But like the sands on the beach that never
wash away.. I watch over my surviving mommy
who thinks of me each day..
She wears a smile for others.. a smile
of disguise.. but through heavens open
door I see tears flowing from her eyes.

My mommy tries to cope with my death..
to keep my memory alive.. but
anyone who knows her.. knows its
her way to survive.

As I watch over my surviving mom through
heavens open door.. I try to tell her that angels
protect me forevermore..
I know that doesnt help her to ease the
burden she bears... so if you get a chance..
go visit her and show her that you care..

For no matter what she says..
no matter what she feels...
My surviving mommy has a
broken heart.....................
That time wont ever heal.....

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Isaiah.. mommy bought a mini cake to celebrate your 1st birthday..
and mommy will light a single candle tonight at 10:14 pm in memory of your birth.... I love you with
all of my heart.. Love and sweet kisses to my tiny angel baby... Love your forever mama..

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Isaiah this is your letter from mommy .. buried with your tiny body..

Dear Isaiah.. my son,

This is the hardest day of my life ... you were born
just a few short days ago and you were with me only 4 hours
and I lost you... I waited so long for you and the six months
that you were in mommys belly ... were the happiest part of my
life.... I want you to know how special you are to me and I
will never forget you... you are mommys little angel and
I wait for the day that I will be reunited with you in heaven
for eternity... I love you very much and I hope you know
this somehow... and I know you are in Jesus arms and
he will take care of you until mommy can be with you
again...I will be missing you until that day....

Love mommy..

Written Jan 30th 2007

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Every now and then- soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again- and its like you havent been
gone a moment from my side... like the tears
were never cried.. like the hands of time are
holding you and me... and with all my heart Im sure
we are closer than we ever were.. I dont have to hear
or see... Ive got all the proof I need ... there are more
than angels watching over me.......
I believe.. oh.. I believe...

Now when you die your life goes on...
It doesnt end here when you are gone..
every soul is filled with light...
It never ends and if Im right...
Our love can even reach across
eternity... I believe.. oh.. I believe...

Forever you are a part of me..
Forever in the heart of me...
and I will hold you even longer if
I can...

There are more than angels watching
over me.. I believe.. oh.. I believe..

Every now and then..soft as breath upon
skin...I feel you come back again...
and I believe...

(Diamond Rio- I believe)

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Im still with you... mommy

Dont cry for me... mommy
I am right here...
Although you cannot see me..
I see your tears...

I visit you often...
Go everywhere with you each day...
and when its time to close your eyes
on your pillow is where I lay...

I hold your hand and stroke your hair..
and whisper in your ear...
If you are sad Mommy..
Remember I am here...

God took me home...
This we know is true...
but, you will always be my
Mommy.. even though I am not
with you...

Im mommys little boy...
We will never be apart...
For every time .. you think of
me.. Please know I am in
your heart... I love you mommy...

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What makes a mother..

I closed my eyes and prayed to God
today.. I asked God.. what makes a
mother? ... and I know I heard him
say ... A mother has a baby..
this we know is true...

But, God can you be a mother ...
When your baby is not with you?
Yes, you can!.. he replied..
with confidence in his voice,
I give many women babies...
when they leave is not their
choice..

Some I send for a lifetime...
others for a day...
And some I send to feel your
womb but, there is no need to
stay...

I just dont understand this God...
I want my baby here...

He took a breath and cleared his
throat.. and then I saw a tear..

I wish I could show you..
what your child is doing today..
If you could see your child
smile with other children and
say...

We go to earth to learn our
lessons of love and life
and fear... My mommy loved me
oh so much... I got to come straight
here...

I feel so lucky to have a Mom..
who had so much love for me...
I learned my lesson very quick..
my mommy set me free...

I miss my mommy oh so much..
but, I visit her each day...
When she goes to sleep ..
on her pillow is where I lay..
I stroke her hair and kiss her
cheek.. and whisper in her ear..
Mommy, dont be sad today..
Im your baby and Im here...

So, you see, my dear sweet one..
your children are o.k..
Your babies are here in my home..
and this is where they will stay..
They will wait for you.. with me..
until your lesson is through..
and on that day that you come home..
they will be at the gates waiting for you..

So, now you see what makes a mother...
Its the feeling in your heart..
Its the love you had so much of .. right
from the very start.. though some on
earth may not realize .. that you are
a mommy until their time is done...
They will be up here with me one day..
and know you are the best one...

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Every breath she ever breathed -
Every effort she ever made-
Every prayer she ever prayed -
Was for her son....

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I have learned that it is the weak who are cruel..
and that gentleness is to be expected only from...
the strong.........
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A wife who loses her husband is called a widow..
A husband who loses his wife is called a widower..
A child who loses their parents is called and orphan..
There is NO word for a parent who loses a child...
Thats how awful the loss is.............
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And God said....

Last of all I have a diamond...
the greatest of all gems....
For those mothers who lost their
children... when they came home
before them...this is the most precious
sacrifice... so I give them the most
precious stone...For I know just how
you felt ... I too lost a child of my own....

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My butterfly..

I long to feel the soft weight of you..
to welcome you home, with kisses..
on silky round cheeks..

Instead my arms ache with the
weight of your absence,
the empty places that were meant
for you to grow into...

My love for you will last an eternity..
My hopes and dreams now carried..
on the fragile wings of each butterfly passing..
compelling me to pause..
to savour each moment..

Each flutter in my heart--
your wings..

To my little prince.. Isaiah @>--

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Isaiah... you are loved more than a million words
could ever say... and your were created out of love..
and it does not matter that your father and I are not
together anymore.. there still was a moment in time...
where you, my precious tiny angel.. were created out
of an act of love and no one in this world can ever change
that..... here are a few words to those who think that
cruelty will ever change that moment that lives in my
memory and always will ----->>>>>>>>>>